a snippet of the canvas I am finishing for the "Make It Big" class I am teaching in Maryland at The Queen's Ink later this yea - lyrics from the Sara Bareilles song "Brave".
I have recently just started an online course by Jen Louden called Teach Now.
I have enormous self doubt when it comes to teaching. This might be silly to some people because, after all, I have a university qualification in teaching. And when it comes to teaching school students, I have a high degree of confidence in my ability. However, when it comes to teaching adults, I become almost paralysed with fear - feelings of not being good enough, not being smart enough, being thought of as a "fraud".
My rational self knows this is crazy thinking. After all, people continually pay their hard earned money to take my classes. This humbles me every single time and something I do not take for granted. I get fantastic, positive feedback from my students. Yet I still feel plagued with self doubt.
There are many reasons why I might feel this way (and lord knows we don't need to go into the deep psyche of my life right here!) but one way I choose to invest in myself and my students is to take this course. I am already learning so much and already thinking about things I can do to improve the learning experience of my students - stretching myself as a teacher and a person.
So, if I seem a little absent, it's because:
(a) there is a lot happening in my life right now (mostly good);
(b) I am absorbing the Teach Now content and percolating ways to provide my students with better learning experiences; and
(c) preparing my classes for my USA teaching tour to be even better than those I originally proposed - the content will be as described but I am hoping the experience will be a better, stronger, more positive one.
So, why am I telling you this? Well, if you're nearby one of my teaching destinations, I'd love if you'd consider coming to one of my classes - not only because I want to meet new friends and especially my blog readers, but also because I want to be accountable - if you read this, read what I am doing and then attend a class, you're well placed to then let me know how I am going - what you think I am doing well at, and where improvements can be made (in kind ways!). It might also explain why I am not blogging quite as much as I might usually.
And if you ARE coming to my classes - let me know! Say hello via a comment or an email or on my Facebook page. I'd love to hear from you.